I want to speak truth and tell you all where I am at.
I have struggled with a weight issue all of my life. I literally remember as a child being worried about what I looked like in a bathing suit, and this was before I was 5 years old. Very low self-esteem as a child. When I became a teen I did loose some weight, but in the standard of back then I was still to fat. Even though I had a waste of 24 inches, also a size 36C bust, but was also a gal that was very hippy I think i was like 40 inches in the hips, lots of curves going on. I weighed 135 lbs at age 15. I was a cheerleader and exercised all the time. But I was still ridiculed over my weight.
CRAZY I KNOW! Kids can be so CRUEL!
Luckily for me guys still noticed and thought I was cute, and quite a few even liked the curves, LOL, But during that time I became sick of attracting the wrong type of guys. I had always believed in God but around that time I had become a Christian and had started to pray to God for the right guy to come into my life. Well luckily for me that didn't take to long. I am presently married to the most wonderful guy in the world. He was just what I needed in my life then and still is now. (Married 29 years - together for 32)
Again, Crazy I know!
But slowly after starting to date my hubby the weight started creeping back on, I think I became a little to comfortable around him. I also think my weight became that of a protection to hide behind.
(maybe in another blog)
So 3 years later we got married and 8 months after that moved to out to sunny California, and their I gained even more weight. Came back to MA 2 years later because we wanted to start a family and we were both homesick for our family and friends and knew CA was not a place we wanted to raise kids. (great learning experience though) Then I Discovered a few years later that I had an autoimmune disease which also included hashimotos thyroid, Rheumatoid arthritis, vitilago to name a few. All that began to make it very difficult to loose the weight, Did not seem to matter what I did or ate.
So until 6 years ago, I have been struggling with weight, the many autoimmune issues, having had 3 children (2 prematurely and 1 very sick), one miscarriage. to name a few things over the years. Done so many diet programs and fads I can't even count, and only had one that was semi helpful, but that even came right back on when stress of life came into the picture.
But then 6 years ago last October I discovered Young Living, (well I didn't discover it really, it was shown to me by my Father in Heaven) After much prayer.
I then started to slowly start taking off the weight, my self esteem rose and I was feeling great! I no longer was struggling with the same issues I had been and felt awesome. Then 3 years into it I don't know what really took place at the time. My natural path said it could of just been a stress issue in life that triggered my autoimmune response to go crazy again and my body started attacking itself again. (because that is what an autoimmune problem does in your body, it try's to destroy itself)
WELL I AM SPEAKING TO MYSELF RIGHT NOW AND TELLING MYSELF HOW MUCH I LOVE ME!!!!!
So I literally had a couple of weeks where I would gain 10 lbs in a weeks time. For no apparent reasoning. Hadn't done anything different it just piled on. So it has now been 3 years and I am 40 lbs heavier then I was 3 years ago when the weight was starting to really come off. During the time of all this weight gain I had discovered my thyroid was super bad, it should only have a level of about 2-4, mine was 64. And it stayed like that for about a year before I gave in and did what I needed to do and get back on medicine until I could work it out and get back off it. (it was not like I had been doing nothing during this time, I was taking 7 thyromin a day but my autoimmune issue decided that thyromin was bad and attacked that too) But also very unfortunately for me the thyroid and autoimmune response issue had taken quite a toll on my heart. And I ended up having a mild heart attack, 2 years ago this June.
( That is still so hard for me to admit and say to this day) Being Real!
I really wasn't going to even go into all this here, but I guess I needed to.
You see I am a firm believer in Young Living and there products, I have no question about the quality, the integrity in the company, and I still and always will use them every single day because they keep me sane. ( is that compliant lol) They have blessed my life so much and I will continue to use and share the love of these little bottles of Gods gift to me. And I believe Gods gift to many. Please if you have any questions please contact me or leave me a message here. If you need more explanation about anything I have shared.
Anyway; This leads me into the title of my Blog today..... "I have a Dream"
I shared this dream with someone yesterday and she was the one who recommended me sharing it with all of you. Thanks Maria
You see I am still overweight, I am still not where I want to be, I am still not where I know I will be, because God has given me a Dream! And I know he has plans for me, plans to prosper me, plans to not harm me, plans to give me hope and a future. I still have a beautiful destiny to fulfill on this earth.
And I want you all to know that the one dream I have had for years, is being able to RUN!
Yes, that is it! I want to run, I want to not only RUN PHYSICALLY but I also want to RUN the race he has marked out for me too. And I will do it, and I want you to come on this new journey with me, of learning self love, self intent, and to have my soul prosperous and be in magnificent health!
Because, why? Christ, that is why!
I thank him so much for my family and for these oils and products, for the incredible support they all give this body. I love me, my family and these awesome products that support me in loving it even more.
Keep real, keep being you. Keep being the diamonds and pearls that you are. Sparkle and Shine Bright.
God Bless you
Also keep an eye out here for more of my life's journey. I would love to encourage and help anyone along the way. Join me and lets do this together.
Wife, Mother, Christian, and Essential Oil Educator.... Because I love to help people and honor God's word.